As somebody who is at quite a few lasts in her life at the moment, I don’t think I could have come up with a better title for my never-as-late-as-ever post.
Sitting in my version of cupboard under the stairs, I truly have better things to do –
- Study for my last semester exams, which begin on Wednesday
- Look for a place to intern at beginning next month
- Look for a new place to stay in, hopefully, in the same city come July
- Study for entrances, which I have to take next month
- Pack up the last three years in boxes, cartons, luggage and ship them home
- Say goodbye!
But here I am, writing this blog hoping to do this for at least the next three months while I look for a purpose in life.
To be honest, all the exams that I have taken through eighteen years of my academic life I have had the same desire: go to sleep and don’t wake up until they are over. This time, it is different. My marks are going to be a mess – internals have already proven as much. I haven’t studied for the horrible subject that Taxation is and I might as well not go and not take it. I have, however, no desire to go to sleep. If it were up to me, I would keep awake and savour this month – learn, catch up and not say goodbye.
What is really astonishing to me is I did not feel this way when I left school, left home and came to a new city for my undergraduate! Nope..there was excitement and relief to have left all that behind. Right now, I don’t think I would like anything more but to box everything and a few special ones around me. Maybe, it is just the fear of the real world.
Moving on from exams, I have to intern this summer or go home. I am torn. I haven’t home for more than 4 days in the last one and a half years and that was twice. At the same time, I need to up my ability to get a job by interning somewhere before I start postgrad.
And did I tell you, I have given my shitty ass landlord notice without actually finding a place to live? So, I have exactly 21 days to move my ass and get a new room somewhere!
I don’t think I am in a position to talk about packing. I have unending books lying on my study table waiting for me to pick them up and read. Alas! I shall have to put them in cartons and send them home.
I have no clue why I am writing this but I am going to do the same thing for the next three months because this blog – though un-updated and unfollowed has been a constant for four years now.
If only I could switch on my yellow lights, GA episodes and be the ostrich, I dream to be.